But... I had joined some primitive artist groups while selling my wares on ebay. So, everyday I would visit and fiddle on the computer. I could move the mouse around pretty well while cuddled up with baby Rebekah on the couch. I started delving deeper into manipulating my own photographs and scanned backgrounds. I got brave enough to offer some graphics to fellow group members. Little by little, a new business venture began. But... graphics lead to templates in the ebay world, so my venture was limited.
With Rebekah curled up in my lap, I spent night after night... sometimes 'til 4:00am studying HTML tutorials. I began to dream in HTML, think in HTML, speak in HTML!!! Finally, I began offering some templates to friends. When the requests started to come in, I wanted a fresh start business-wise, so I took a deep breath and pondered. Rebekah was inspiring me to enjoy the little girl inside of me more and more each day. Her zest for life, and beauty, and PINK was contagious. I decided for a few reasons to choose the nickname of my childhood; bestowed upon me by my own dear mom who died while I was pregnant for Rebekah. And Linda*Pinda*Designs was born.
And Rebekah spent countless hours in my studio looking out her favorite window... Spring, Summer, Fall, Winter... Like on this memorable snowy day...
One of the best parts of having her as my prim assistant was that she felt as though my friends were her friends. "Is that gollywobbles, Mommy?" "Is Cora feeling better, Mommy?" "Tell Miss Jeannie I miss her." "When are we gonna go see Maoni again?" (that's Naomi, in big people talk.. hee hee)It was an extra special treat when I would recieve a package in the mail from one of my online friends. There was sure to be a dollie or some other treasure for Rebekah to unwrap and love before placing it in it's special spot.
Like this one from my dear friend Sam, of Gollywobbles...
Miss Pootsie's Primitives...
She even travelled hundreds of miles with me to spend time with some of my dearest online artist friends. And now, their children are her friends...
Since those early days, things have gotten better for me. Enbrel injections have made an amazing difference in my physical abilities, and relieved so much pain. I've been able to return to creating original art pieces and am enjoying that so much. Rebekah likes to sit and draw right beside me.
She's been my joy, my strength, my inspiration.
She's taught me more than I can ever teach her, including embracing the little girl inside of me, and believing I can do anything I set my mind to.
I'm trying to keep it together.